Getting real.

I am having a hard time right now.  A really hard time. 

I try to always keep LITC on the bubbly, happy-go-lucky side, but while talking to my friend TN yesterday, we observed that this is the majority of what we see of each other's lives on the internet.  We see engagement pictures, wedding albums, weekend outings, + upbeat status updates.  And yes, it's a fantastic thing to see + it is important to focus on the positive things in life + is such a wonderful feeling to see each other's happinesses, but I observed that sometimes only seeing that part of your friends' lives makes you feel completely abnormal + that much more unlucky when you hit a really hard bump in the road.  So I've decided to admit to the group of you here that follow me + consistently cheer me on in my best of times, that I am in fact having an incredibly difficult time right now.

I must spare the details, because although I am admitting that I am currently hurting, airing specific dirty laundry is unnecessary.  Suffice it for me to describe it to you like this:  You know those times in your life when all you can do is let forth the waterworks, run to your family for the tightest hugs + the most empowering words they can muster, + turn in at night wanting to just curl into a ball + hide under the covers for days, hoping that when you awake your heart will be healed of the pain?  That...is currently where I stand.  

And I do not ask for pity whatsoever - that isn't what I need.  I just needed the therapeutic feeling of sharing my position with you ladies.  You are my friends + confidants more often than not, + you all so bravely share with me your hard times + when you need support.  I sure do appreciate knowing that I have you in my life.