Decisions.

Lately I've been sifting through old drafts that I never posted.  Some are completed, some only half thoughts, and some are really scattered and not fluidly written at all.  Reading words I wrote months ago sometimes catches me off guard - "I wrote that?  I used that word?  Good word choice, Lace.  Pat on back."

Anyway, here's another draft I found from back in October 2011.  Reminiscing back to that season of my life, I can remember that it was a time for me of solid soul searching.  I was planning a cross-country move, a job change, and how to attempt a graceful end to my relationship of almost two years.  Being able to reveal all of that to you now before you forge ahead in reading the below puts a much more enlightening spin on it.  I obviously couldn't disclose all of those close-to-the-heart matters a year ago when I first wrote this, but seeing as I survived and thrived in all of those changes, I'm happy to share that little insider bit with you now.

Without further ado.

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October 2011

Sometimes I find myself worrying all too much about all too many things.  I don't take the advice that I myself dole out to others.

"We only get one ride, folks.  One time to eff up and make as many mistakes as we possibly can, and we have anywhere from 0 to 100 years to fit it all in." 

As I was contemplating life, its decisions and the circumstances that it thrusts upon us, I really came to the conscious awareness that as long as we require of ourselves as much honesty and awareness as possible when making important life choices, there really are no wrong decisions.  Each decision any of us makes turns us left or right or all around in a circle, and leads us to the next day in our life where we are faced with another set of decisions and choices.  Weighing the options and making the most educated decision on how fast we head in which direction, is just our part in making sure that the Earth still turns around for one more day.

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